A rape survivor’s account

So Fireworks only affect animals ? This lady begs to differ.

Please share her story far and wide on Facebook – The wider community is unaware of how distressing random fireworks are to people. Don’t just use the emojis – share – takes no more time than giving a thumbs up or a teary face. This lady has faced her demons for us – at least give her story the recognition it deserves.
It has been said and mocked by those who love fireworks that victims of rape should get over it, it has nothing to do with fireworks. I beg to differ, anyone who has had a traumatic event in their life can succumb to PTSD. I am talking about ordinary people not military who suffer with COMBAT PTSD. How does it affect me and my life? The noise of fireworks brings back memories, the sound of glass breaking, of thudding steps. Imagine being laid in the safety of your own bed in your own home and hearing that. What followed changed my life and how I looked at myself – but as part of surviving rape I adapted to the new me. What I cannot adapt to is laying in my bed, in my house and hearing fireworks – the memories they bring with them prevent me sleeping, take me back to a time of real fear for my life. I am on high alert and sleep is the enemy – my heart races, I feel sick – the fight or flight within me fights for dominance. Then another firework goes off and the little bit of self-control I have disappears. This goes on for nights, the lack of sleep affects my depression and I spiral further down. I know people tell me oh it’s because of the nights’ drawing in and I let them believe that – it’s easier than explaining to someone who doesn’t know why. When I hear fireworks on 5th November and New Years’ Eve I know what it is, it doesn’t stop the absolute panic, but I am able to reason with myself and take the diazepam. But in the corner of my mind……

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